I feel like I’m in between living on Earth and living on another planet, kind of like how someone feels at their last week of work. All I feel is disappointment and festering anger, and I just want to pack my shit up and move to Europa. (The links in this post probably contain triggers for violence.) This could have been a Friday Night Rage, which I haven’t done in a long time, but I don’t think I could wait for Friday.
I’m angry that Duanna Johnson was murdered. I’m angry that the police who brutalized and beat her earlier in the year may never face charges. I’m angry that the person(s) who murdered her may never be brought to justice because if the police beat her, what do they care about her murder? I’m angry that there is a possibility they just finished the job they started in the summer. I’m angry that I think that, that I’m so jaded, when there is so much to keep fighting for.
I’m angry that Aqsa Parvez was murdered in a situation that was clearly one of domestic violence. I’m angry at her killers. I’m angry that violence against women isn’t taken seriously. I’m angry that it was dredged up a year later by Toronto Life, for sensationalism, only to call it an honour killing. I’m angry they airbrushed her personal photo for the cover of their affluential magazine. I’m angry that they blame it on a culture clash, Islam, call it “Toronto’s first honour killing”, and ask ridiculous questions about whether or not immigrants are integrating into mainstream Canadian culture or if this is the “price of multiculturalism.” I’m angry at the editor for being complacent about the criticisms.
I’m angry that Jane Currie and Anji Dimitriou couldn’t pick up their children at school without being beaten because they are lesbians. I’m angry that they have to push and lobby for the attack to be considered a hate crime. I’m angry that people think this had nothing to do with sexuality and heternormativity. I’m angry that people think homophobia doesn’t exist. I’m angry that people think this isn’t a hate crime, and that they’re looking for ’separate crimes.’
I’m angry.
I am angry too! I want out of where ever I am at, I have the same exact feeling…
Just found your blog, I share your anger with your entire list. Well said completely.
I am a volunteer Hate Crime Victim Advocate in the city I live in…and I feel so enraged about what happened to Jane & Anji, and the trauma that their children now suffer from, and the level of effort it took for the attack to be recognized by the authorities as being hate motivated when it was so bluntly obvious! So much work to be done!
All my love to you…